2nd June

So i'm not getting married in June.

Just felt i needed to verbalise it. I have had a number of messages from people trying to find out what has happened without admitting to facebook stalkery. I'm ok if people just admit they were stalking me.

It worked out well for Mrs Jewhurst. She was honest and i told her the truth!

But yeah, I'm not getting married.

There are many reasons.

But the crux of it.

I wasn't in love with him anymore.


Someone said it was a case of cold feet or a fear of intimacy. Alex asked if it was because i was a lesbian. Opinions like this bug me because it makes me feel like the other people don't know me as well as they should.

I don't make rash decisions, especially not when they impact others in such a big way. I considered everything and then realised that i had no other option left but the hard one.


It takes two to break up a relationship. I had a hand in this. As did he.

And just because i was the one who ended it doesn't mea that it doesn't hurt. Maybe not as much as for Law but there is still the knowledge of the pain i have caused him and his family.

But for now i get up and go to work and make cake for people.

I take this as a learning opportunity that like from all the others i shall grow.


thats all for now folks.
Helen