Staples

So i'm reading a grief observed by mr clive staples (C.S) Lewis.

It is his own thoughts and journalling written shortly after the death of his wife Helen. And it is simply beautiful, raw and challenging.

In chapter 3 he remarks that the Bible says it will not be easy being a Christian and that Jesus even promised 'blessed are those who mourn'

To quote
"I've got nothing that i hadn't bargained for. Of course it is different when the thing happens to oneself, not to others, and in reality, not in imagination. Yes; but should it, for a sane man, make quite such a difference as this? No. And it wouldn't for a man whose faith had been real faith and whose concern for other people's sorrow and been real concern."

He goes on to berate himself for effectively being selfish for not caring and loving and empathising enough about others about the 'sorrows of the world'

Just something to ponder.